Life Changes

I am happier than I have ever been. I am on track with my weightloss. I have moved up the ladder at work. I luv my job. I am busy and I am going to be going on vacation 9 days.

My self-confidence is improving. I can go to the gym now and do my own workouts without pausing to think of what others may think. Everybody is there to improve their own health and bodies. My trainer is awesome and she is really helping me to build my strength and has given me a routine to follow.

I looked at myself this mornin in the mirror and thought to myself. "Wow, Will. You're getting there. Slowly but surely." The shirts in which I was self-conscious about my flaws are slowly improving. Grey is a color which is very revealing I think and so is bright colors. But I am beginning to explore these a palettes as I feel more and more self-confident in my appearance.

But the only thing I feel is lacking in my life is a relationship. My problem is that I am shy and actually not taking the time to look. I mean sure, I get looks but I don't take the initiative to follow through. Right now, my attitude is that I will just keep doin' what I'm doin' and see what happens. I don't want to sell myself short. I may have high expectations but I'm sure there is someone out there who fits my criteria. Somehow, I think the answer lies in finding a new interaction pool where I start interacting with new crowds. But how and where? I'll have to work on this.

But other than that, I have no complaints. :P Life is good. And I worked damn hard to get where I am at right now.

I have been thinking about this quote, "If you don't like something, change it. If you can't change it, change your attitude." by Maya Angelou and I don't think she talking about giving up and then changing ur attitude. I think when she says if you can't change it, she is talking about an impossible situation where the solution is not a possiblity. So in this special situation, change your atttude. Just never stop trying.


It has been about 3 years and I'm glad I started my weightloss journey because the determination, self-control and motivation certainly spilled over into other aspects of my life. I can imagine how I would feel right now if it weren't for that one moment where I decided, it's time. I never wanted anything so bad as I do now and it is so close that I can almost taste the success. But in due time.

So now, let's get back to work and make the best of life.